I follow one of the often repeated pieces of advice given to newbies. Never tell them when you are actually planning to leave. It is ALWAYS 3 or 4 week later.

I have spent 6 quite wonderful days in AC. Pacific Breeze may have just won my continued patronage. Lost in Asia girl has been the sweetest thing you can wish for, and to top it off, she is not trying to control my every move. Every night is just a bit better than the last. As she gains more trust in me, the sex get better and more uninhibited.

On this trip I have Really scored so far. EDSA girl in Manila and Cebu was wonderful. LIAG (Lost in Asia Girl) is even better.

Today is my last day in AC before heading off to Pattaya. Last night was one of those transcendent fuck fests that I live for. LIAG has decided that she trusts me completely and does not hide anything she is feeling while we are going at it. No more Shy Bullshit if I go down on her. If she is getting it good and liking it, she expresses it. She is directing me on how hard I should fuck her. She is a TINY thing and I am surprised by just how much she wants. Surprised but delighted.

My flight leaves at 10 PM from Manila so I don’t have to leave till 6 PM. Time enough for two short times. Which I get from a tramp from Lollipop and a Santos Street Special.
At about 10 AM, I get the text message. She has NOT said this before. She KNOWS I’m a butterfly. It is sent ONLY ONCE. And I KNOW she means it.

I Love You.

No pleas to come see her. No demands for my whereabouts. No accusations about “why do you hurt me”. And she thinks I’m not leaving for 2 more weeks.

I was considering just taking off. I decide that I should say goodbye. I direct my driver to stop at LIA and I get out to the usual Hero’s welcome. They really liked those Pool Parties. I make my announcement about leaving and it takes a minute for it to register. Then… pandemonium breaks out. Wailing and gnashing of teeth. Except for LIAG. She simple attaches herself to me in a tight embrace. I decide that I want to take her with me to the airport. She wants to go. The rest of the gang, especially Ata Annie, are grabbing me and imploring me not to go… that I’m not supposed to leave yet…

Quite the scene.

Once we get LIAG and myself in the car, there is no crying. There is no talking even. She has me locked in an embrace that leaves no doubt that she does not want to be away from me. Occasionally she gives me a passionate kiss but no words.

I’m thinking to myself:
“This is it. This is the ultimate expression about why I do this” LIAG loves me. And not that Filipina rescue fantasy crap, she loves me for who she thinks I am. I have not promised anything, neither expressed nor implied. I have not misrepresented anything nor have I exploited any misconceptions on her part.”

Fuck. She Loves Me. I gotta stop doing this. Nevermind I did not do anything that could be held against me. LIAG is a sweetheart whose emotions are being given a through workout because I like GFE. There is much wisdom in the find em, fuck em and leave school

She finally says something when we are nearly at the airport. She slips a condom in my hand and whispers “just joking”. And then kisses me. And stuffs my hand up her shirt. And she grabs my Johnson. And then just goes back to the embrace.

GWAD I luv it. And I hate myself for doing it. LIAG is strong but she will not be falling for a customer again anytime soon.

Be careful about what you wish for. Once you get it…

So will you send her money in Thailand or just wait until you get to the States?

No money has or will be sent. I do my inappropriate piso puking in-country... you know... cell phones and plane trips . I have NOT sent any money to any of the bar girls I have fallen in love with. Of course I get requests but I know better. I joined this community in time to save me from any truly grand fuck-ups.

I like what I do but I need to re-think it. Falling in wuv (summer romance style) is great but I think it can have un-intended consequences (blowback) both for me and her.