Posted by HornyMike on September 18, 2000 at 20:13:43:
In Reply to: Stages of Monger Development posted by XMan on September 18, 2000 at 10:02:46:
| Very interesting posts by all of you. I find myself more or less moving into Stage 4, occasionally vacillating back to the earlier stages. I am now more or less "abusing" TJ by trying to see if I can get emotional needs satisfied there, going past the pure physical. I love chatting with the chicas. I chat with them over drinks, in the room, the sex being almost an aside sometimes. I am not comfortable with this as I know such "friendship" can not be real. But I'm having a great time, so what the hey? I was recently dejected when a "favorita" left TJ. She was only in for a few weeks to raise a few bucks before heading back to school. I miss her, frankly. I was only with her once, went back a second time but she wasn't working. Now she's gone. Lovely, feminine personality. A 'pain in the ass' but in such a girlish feminine way it could do nothing but enchant you. My "worries" are, what am I going to be doing when I'm 45 and 50? I hope not still trekking to TJ to screw 20 year old girls. I am hoping that the next stage will be celibacy, that I will lose all interest in casual sex, regress back into myself from whence I came, and will again be a good, law-abiding citizen, admitting of no sexual needs at all. I see the infeasibility of this, and only wonder where the future will lead me. One of my firebrand friends tells me I will burn in hell when I die for what I am doing, indulging in such unabashed carnal excess. Well, I hope he's wrong. On the other hand, lighten up dude. I have chosen to limit myself to once TJ trip every 2 weeks, that's it. I am surprised to find this difficult to do. I think about my favoritas on the off weekends, yearning. Where did I go wrong? Why didn't I marry W.? See ya down there.
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