Posted by Matiz on September 21, 2000 at 14:31:39:
In Reply to: Re: Stages of Monger Development posted by XMan on September 21, 2000 at 09:18:50:
| Xman: I just turned 50, so that probably makes me "older" than you. As an adverb, "much" (as in "much older") adds very little except to make me feel bad. As for your query, well, we each have to find our own way to work on ourselves. It varies with each person, and with one's age and experience. I seriously doubt I could have approached TJ in a "spiritual" way as a 25 year old, with hormones raging and libido on fire. When I was younger, I gulped experiences like a glass of wine, without even tasting them. My goal was to accumulate experiences. Now I sip the wine and appreciate the taste, the smell, the effort it took to make it, the sparkle of the wineglass, my good fortune to have the wine. My goal is simply to fully experience the moments as they come. One of the great mistakes I made as a youth, and which many people still make, is assuming that there are "spiritual" moments or "spiritual" activities, and then there is "everything else"--your "ordinary" life. In reality, there are only moments, in an endless string. You make of them what you will--spiritual or not--by your choices at every moment. So my "goal" in TJ is not to "do" anything in particular, but simply to be aware of the moment and fully involved in it, whether that moment is in the blaring noise and hurlyburly of Adelita's, or in the quiet ecstacy of the bedrooms upstairs. Ironically, I have met at least one TJ chica (so I assume there are others), who herself is seriously dedicated to a spiritual tradition. Imagine: stiletto heels, skintight pants, incredible BJ, and a firm grip on the dharma. We've had some fascinating discussions about spiritual training. We've also had some fantastic sex. It's not that I was suprised to meet a fellow spiritual traveler while in TJ. I just didn't expect to be sharing the same bed with her. Ha! Que raro, no? Matiz
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