Posted by raiders on March 23, 2001 at 21:05:41:
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I see, so you now say that you are married and have absolutely zero interest in being with the opposite sex, does that include women also? Yes I understand that your spouse is 3,000 miles away (very far and costly to visit him every month) and that he is everything you could ever want or desire yet you are a women and i'm kind of in a non-belief that you have absolutely zero interest in other men that you see, that want to touch you, ask you to dance, to drink, to socialize, to catch a show, to take a walk on the beach, go out to dinner or perhaps go bar hopping? Perhaps your S.O. reads this message board so therefore you are trying to play it safe so that he 'thinks' his S.O. is being true to him and that you are only conducting your business in the zone as that, strickly business without any recreation envolvement? In regards to the ass and crotch grabbing, I made that remark intensionally, I wanted to see if you were either making up the story or if the situation actually occured and therefore you had to 'correct' my blunder. Yet it surprises me that a guy had to 'check' the merchandise, from what you have discribed, you sound very womenly, and don't worry about consuming too many tacos, believe it or not, some guys love gorditas ;-). I hear alot of talk about guys wanting a flaca yet I believe that a voluptious women has a physically attraction, so please, consume more Al Pastor on our behalf ;-). You say that you recognize women for their beauty..... You say that you stepped out of an arcade at the age of 12 and were solicited for sex? You are aware of the street life, you are used to this type of atmosphere and that you find your associate partners timid to the tasks/research you are currently involved in? Can I ask you this, have you ever been in the line of work in regards to a 'working girl' or perhaps a 'dollar dance' type environment? It is quite common and i'm just wondering if your past growing up perhaps brought you back full circle to discover and research this type of work. You say that you will be obtaining a phd soon with the work you are conducting and that soon you will be financially rewarded for the 'work' you are doing? I thought that money was not an issue and that your s.o. perhaps was not only your emotional supporter yet also you financial supporter? I thought that for a person to devote their time and energy in their field of work such as yours it is because of a passion that they have for the territory? So is it safe to assume that you are conducting this research strickly for the dollar and not for the material that you will be representing? Many guys on this board would jump at a chance to be doing what you are doing and not because they see it as a financial stepping stone, yet strickly for the shear passion/love/devotion/interest/****/gratification So now that you know TJ much better do you perhaps see yourself visiting anytime soon without conducting any business? Will you remain on this board or will you delete your account and forget what you learned and the people that you developt a relationship with? Does your s.o. understand how you feel and what changes you have or are going thru? It funny how things work out, first your are the scientist conducting experiments on people. Trying to figure out what makes them tic and toc. You perhaps have preconceived notion on a certain society. You think you know your material only to realize down the road that the more you know the more you really don't know. Not sure if you know what I mean. I guess what i'm trying to say is that once you probe into a certain subject and conduct your experiments and write down your rough drafts, you are now learning with each passing moment and realizing that you honestly are finding out that the world is truely complex and that there really is not one set rule and that sometimes a generalization along with the nature nuture theory is what life is truely about. Each person in the Zone, in TJ, in Mexico, in the U.S., in the world has his or her reason for being who they are and how they conduct themselves and you being the 'researcher' may need to spend minutes, days, months, years, decades, centuries, eons on trying to figure out what perhaps is not figurable (if that is a word ;-). Yet with your notes, with your countless hours in the bars, perhaps you will grasp the subject in a more condense form for formulate an equation as to what exactly it is you are researching. I am perhaps 7 years experienced with the subject that you are researching yet to be honest with you, I feel that I have learned .001% of the life you are currently studying. For that, my passion and interest such as my fellow man will forever make the trek into TJ to experience lifes boundries in which only a few will ever really know the meaning of. Good luck again on your endeavors and perhaps one day we may met before you are finish with your project. Raiders. |